starlight

At this very moment I’m sitting outside on top of my neighbour’s roof, staring into the sky.
I’ve been thinking about doing this for a while, so after watching a few hours of anime and writing a little blog I ventured out, scaled the fence, layed down and for some reason this is one of the most amazing moments in my life. I knew this would be great but I never imagined I would feel so full or enlightened by this. I'm a very strong believer in that the best things in life are free. I’m very cold though. Gazing into this whirlpool of stars and lights is giving me the most amazing thoughts. It’s just that inspirational. All that's left now is to smile humbly and think about how insignificant I am, it’s ever so belittling. This is probably the most peaceful thing I’ve ever experienced. I could spend hours looking at these stars but I know in my mind this will last forever. There’s no noise, no wind or clouds its just perfect. I really don't want to go to sleep, I’m not tired but its 3.20am so I reckon I should. I’d rather just lay here enjoying this wholesome feeling.
I can tell from these moments of great happiness that my life is going to be amazing...

forgiveness

So I’ve been thinking so much about so many things lately and watching avatar this evening has helped me realize some things. People hold so many petty things against each other. A wise man once told me that learning to forgive is the hardest thing in life to do, but it will be the key to happiness in life. I'm beginning to figure it all out. I believe that through justifying peoples reason for doing something is the key to forgiving them. For example if someone does something wrong by you they must have a reason for doing so, by identifying this and then justifying it. It’s all to do with reasons. I know that I'm going to be a much happier person
I'd be happy for life to turn out with me as an wise man somewhere in between uncle Iroh and uncle Ned. Being a cheerful old guitar playing hedonist, what a dream? Always being able to forgive will mean that you can always love...

maths lesson

when sleep is bestowed nightmares come
the morning brings a gate of freedom
so when the time is brought that path i enter
this day now brings a chance for laughter






if only you knew the meaning



by simon and mitch

happy

I guess I'm happy well content last few days I've had new thoughts idea's on life I've decided to be happy enjoy my friends my schooling my everything because it matters choosing to be happy matters it makes a difference had a couple lets down and average days but choosing not to be let down by lame teachers people pissing me off I don't let those things to ruin my day anymore from now on I'm happy seeing the best in things you'll see me smiling in the sunshine feeling mellow gazing at the clouds

a typical goodnight

After a night of nothingness, besides watching episode after episode of Naruto and waiting for friends to reply.
I take my headphones off.
Close down MySpace and shut down the computer.
On my journey to the other end of the house
I stop at the fridge to get a glass of cold milk and a panadol for the pain in my legs.
I get to my room
put my phone on the charger
maybe send out a message to someone I know wont reply
the tinge of loneliness and cold speedily comes, I roll over and think.....
just think, about everything
all the conversations, my friends and the possibility's
I'm pretty sure everyone does the same thing exactly like I do
I dunno it just seems so special to me
thinking.....
I've been told I'm a thinker before
a friend wished she could be like a fly stuck on fly paper, to my thoughts and imaginations
I thought that very intriguing.
lying in bed waiting for sleep sucks
I'm afraid of sleeping
I don't know why, I just am
so lie there eyes wide open
thinking...
just thinking.......

That confusing life thing.

I hate trying to figure life out. This thing that could be a one shot at everything. I can't understand or fathom existence. Hell, if there is a God. There must be a master plan for us. Either that or we were just created by a big coincidence. But if so then what, what does that mean for us by his perspective. Does he just give us this thing called a bible and put us in a time where society is filled with shallow, judgmental hypocrites, TV stars and action movies? Born, married, kids, die, the end? I can't imagine or contemplate an actual after life, I can't feel it. Life is just so confusing. I can’t wait to be old and wise after having a life's experience at living. I guess we are meant to live not knowing what we are here for, just to live and exist till that final moment when it’s all revealed. Living, loving and then dying.

love i spose

love is strange
love is hard
love is joy
love is pain
love i think in all my thoughts and wisdom is one of the hardest things in this life to interpretate
(besides maths extended)
love on a personal level i say is the way to true happiness
loving another human as an equal
loving those around you just because you can is what keeps the world from destruction
unconditional love is what makes us human and not just beings.
we must love if not just to lose yourself

"Even after all this time
The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."
Look what happens with a Love like that!
—It lights the whole Sky." (Hafiz)

having altruistic love makes a great person
forgiving, compassion and love and a wild heart


thats a nights ramblings for you