That confusing life thing.

I hate trying to figure life out. This thing that could be a one shot at everything. I can't understand or fathom existence. Hell, if there is a God. There must be a master plan for us. Either that or we were just created by a big coincidence. But if so then what, what does that mean for us by his perspective. Does he just give us this thing called a bible and put us in a time where society is filled with shallow, judgmental hypocrites, TV stars and action movies? Born, married, kids, die, the end? I can't imagine or contemplate an actual after life, I can't feel it. Life is just so confusing. I can’t wait to be old and wise after having a life's experience at living. I guess we are meant to live not knowing what we are here for, just to live and exist till that final moment when it’s all revealed. Living, loving and then dying.