Sunday, November 23, 2008
old age
so its about 12.11 on Friday night well Saturday morning and I’m really bored I just watched a movie umm December boys with harry potter in it, and it really got me thinking (which I do way to often on crap subjects) what will my life me like, as in the end. Death. What will happen shortly before what will my life be like years before it what it will be like when the monitor says only but beeeeeeeeeeep? So I texted some people to try and talk to them about it no reply that’s probably because it’s the earliest morning can be but still is that what my old age be like waking up every morning wondering if it will end that day or the next. not hearing from anyone, from the past, my old friends, sisters the people that shaped my life losing contact and every few weeks getting a call from someone telling me that one of my best friends from childhood had past away then the next it's my favourite teacher and then a sister. Something that just makes me wanna end it myself. And right whilst I’m pondering all this shit, I’m fuckin scared. Right to my very heart my throat feels hoarse..... sleeping will be hard tonightthinking blows sometimes I wish I was retarded like Daniel or something and not think about things.... actually that’s foolish everyone would have thought about death it would be inhuman not to have (<--- that’s off the subject)bye
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this is the second time im writing this comment. so it wont be as good.
Okay.. well its not that i dont think you should write blogs, its just that some of the stuff you write about is a little too um deep i think thats the word. anyway.. its not that its bad or anything, its just that your only like 14 or whatever which i think is too young to start worrying about everything. leave it to the older people for a bit. thats what i do most of the time..
anyway you dont have to listen to me at all. i think you should keep writing your blogs but maybe about stuff that relates to you more. not all about dying and shit. thats just depressing
wow your are really cool and deep. i like it. stuff what that other chic says living life is getting deep.(hey and by the way MACCAS all the way - i work there too. )
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